When I thought it was the classes that kept us apart, on the last day of the semester, I knew it wasn't. When I thought we were still friends, on the last day of the semester, I knew we were not anymore. When I thought we could at least still say hi and bye, on the last day of the semester, I knew we couldn't anymore. When I thought you guys were the best friends I had ever met in college, on the last day of the semester, I knew you guys were not. When I thought I would cherish you guys alot, on the last day of the semester, I knew I wouldn't have to. When I saw you guys as my friends, on the last day of the semester, I knew you guys didn't see me as one. 

When the truth was revelead, I couldn't hold back my tears. Then only I knew, I was so fragile. I am still. I knew I should not cry. Come on, was the truth worth my tears? To be rational, it wasn't. To be frank, it hurt. It seriously did. I thought true friends would exist, in fact, they wouldn't. At least they never exist in my life. That's all I could say.

I had been being so naive naiVE NAIVE... I couldn't forgive myself for being so naive. I couldn't forgive myself for being hurt by this kind of frienship, or I should not use the word 'friendship' cause we never had it. I couldn't forgive myself for crying when I knew the truth. I couldn't forgive myself for being depressed over this kind of matter. I couldn't forgive myself for losing my dignity all this while when I was trying so hard to maintain the 'frienship' with them and they actually did not give it a damn. 

Tell me, how could I trust in relationships anymore? The world has failed to prove me humans are trustworthy. The world has failed to prove me relationships are eternal. No, I should not put the blame on the world, but what I have encountered up to now said all that.

All these experiences explained why I believe in God with all my heart. The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms. (Deuteronomy 33:27)